i take it as a compliment when people bash me with my flaws. i can’t think of any other way to thank them for spending their precious time talking about me. also, i’ll forever find it funny how those people were the ones i couldn’t care any less. tbh, i was surprised when i found out. so please, seize every opportunity you can find. ;) prove to the world how immature and lowly you guys are *u*
It’s already the last week of April and I am barely noticing the days. It seems like I’ve been living in fast forward ‘cos moments keep on passing by (hell I didn’t just use that as a sentence???? oh god what’s happening to me haha). My summer life is not as relaxing as I pictured it. Yknow, staying up all night, having a breakfast meal for dinner because you just woke up, watching tons of movies and tv series, eating every food inside the fridge, then sleeping for hours again. Moreover, this summer has become more of a stress whirlpool to me. Yes I stay up until midnight, even go out until the break of dawn, but there are days wherein I’m complied to wake up early due to events, responsibilities, dates with fambam.. it’s actually more stressful than you think. It’s ironic that even during summer, I’m still sleep deprived. Though I’m going to stop ranting because this won’t get me anywhere.
So.. Random fact: I haven’t opened my photoshop in ages until now. And look what I just finished doing:
It’s my new Facebook cover photo! & I am not sure if I should be proud of it or what cos it’s just basic work but I still feel purdy for it because as I’ve mentioned, it’s been awhile since I last used the photoshop and do something for myself.
i remember when you were inside your car and we were having our usual conversation. you just came back from one of your monthly meetings. it was the first sunday of a certain month, of course. it was a very sunny day and I was fixing my hair through the side mirror, as usual. yknow, i do not like it when i feel that the side mirror is staring at me so chances are, i usually stare back. that is when people start to tell me that i am vain. as i was having this staring contest with the mirror while talking to you, i vaguely asked if there were any pretty girls in your meeting and you explicitly said there were nothing but shrimps. you exaggerated that all the people there were not as good looking as you (!!!) and the girls are only good because of their bodies. i laughed. because i could see your disappointment through your words. i laughed. because you were so mean and I was kinda proud of it. i laughed. because i can’t believe you just said that to me. i laughed. because it comes to show that you were really looking for pretty girls. i laughed. because at that time, i know you were telling the truth.
this happened over a year ago and i could still remember every bits of it simply because of one reason: you were telling the truth
i know you know that i curse you because you are, as much as i often express it, a lying machine. and it was funny when you confessed to me the reason why would you always lie to me. it was funny when you described to me how scared you are always whenever i get mad at you. it was funny when you said that’s the main reason why you are always afraid to tell the truth. it was funny when you’re stand was pretty weak and unreasonable. and it was sure as hell funny how you compared me to a dragon; at least you were starting to use metaphor now, right? *u*
and now, I’d like to go back to the days you had told me truths. i want to know how did you gathered the strength to say the words you kept hiding. because now, right now, i want to tell you a truth.
but I’m scared.
because everything that we fear of, might turn into reality. succumbed until we are in the black hollow sphere that could end both of us
it sux, yo
Heyow guys, I’ve been MIA for a long time and I beg you sorry for that. I’m really pleased to see that you’re all still hereeee *hugss*
Apparently, I didn’t had any time to blog. And/or whenever I got time, I got lazy. Classic eiei, right? Right. Since it’s summer already, I might go back updating this tumblelog again, yay? A LOT of things had happened and I’ll try my best to post throwbacks.
As of the moment, I’m actually getting all my shits together. I’m actually calling this summer as ‘Eiei Rehabilitation Project’ or ERP for short. I positively think that this might be a good project for myself this summer.
And the ERP starts……. now.